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It is disgraceful to stumble twice against the same stone...
but its a Dee to do it thrice...!!!

Saturday Feb 19th 6:00 AM: Where do you see yourself on this particular day at this time of the hour??
Mountain climbing ascending up to the top along with the rising sun.. Running the eleventh mile with tired but unrelenting legs inching forward.. Pumping every drop of sweat and energy into moulding that muscular shape.. Ok. lets take dreams out of the equation. Possibly curled up in your bed snoring frothing scratching your bum...
But as a birder you are either yawning as you drive, stretching out in the woods or sipping Irani chai..

This time it was Blue Sea, Secunderabad and the place was crowded with jackets and shades with people inside them.. Obviously there were motor-bikes scattered all over the place and right under the no-parking signs. But its 6 in the morning the first hour of the day and you want to sip tea not follow rules.. and on the last hour of the day have a beer and not follow rules. May be they should change the sign to no-parking from 12 midnight to 6 AM.. the rest of the hours its the chaos called life where you dont bother to read the signs and signals... But I digress...

Its so true that the mind shows only what you want to see.. I could see the jackets because I was wearing one.. the shades because I forgot to take mine and bikes because for the first time we are going for a birding trip on a bike..

It took less than an hour for us to reach the destination a transition from the highways to the muddy roads in between the fields.. from a warm summer morning to a cold foggy winter morning.. The sky was blushing pink and the vast canopy of pink and blue spread over the abundance of green filled the sight awaiting the arrival of the orange sun.. And he did arrive in style.. staring right into the eye.. the golden rays streaming through the layers of misty white fog peeling it layer by layer and unveiling the beauty that lied within.. The beauty hidden and guarded by the night sky and brought to display under the reign of his golden rays.. The calls of birds lend music to this theatrical display and the picturesque scene was etched into the memory.. (The camera had trouble for the lack of proper lens but there is always a next time..!!)

The dramatic display came to a conclusion with a crescendo of bird calls paving way to the business of stalking. The stalkers were getting the equipment ready for the dirty job. The job to secretly follow the birds, pry into their private lives, photograph their flights, feeding, preening, courtship displays and sometimes mating and publish them on social websites and nature-lover sites without their consent..

The muddy road ran parallel to a stream that was completely covered with water plants barring a few patches where the ducks resided.. There were wet muddy grass fields in between the stream and the road.. The fields were divided into boxes with elevated boundaries. To get close to the ducks one had to walk along these boundaries that only had space for one average Joe foot.

No surprise that we decided to take up this daunting task.. With a heavy camera on one hand and pair of binoculars on the other we disco-danced our way through the fields hugging a tree that obstructed our way to get through it.. hugging a moment longer as my legs were not long enough and trying not give any false impression (i love trees.. they give us shade, provide shelter to so many birds and I will always voice my support for its survival.. but thats it.. thats where I draw the line..) finally we crawl as close as possible imagining our clumsy movements as the stealth of a ninja, drawing our cameras out to trap the birds and before you know it the birds take flight..

Reality check, ninja uniforms striped its business as usual for the stalkers.. The flock always knew our presence.. perhaps they enjoyed our little drama.. tree hugging, twinkle toes.. and they always know the right moment to douse our flimsy hopes.. A few of them feel pity for us and strike a pose or two to keep us happy.. but more often than not we only see the back of these birds in flight in our viewfinders..

With failure sitting heavy on our shoulders we decided to tread back and may be out of dejection or just for the heck of it we use an alternative path. Our first obstacle required us to make a sprint to land on a patch circled with muddy water.. It looked easy and without any further thinking I made the leap.. jump-land-slip-oops-regain balance just in time.. everything was as it had been no leaf turned no puddles disturbed except for the birds who were far far away on the stream sharing the anecdote with their pals.. we continued along the elevated path watching every step and one step strayed a little off the safe zone losing control over the footing and dragging my feet along with the rest of the body into the field. The camera landed in the muddy water and looked like it was garnished with creamy chocolate sauce.. (the pictures are posted on fb that says its working fine..) There was chocolate sauce strewn over one of the sneakers and the denims but the rest of the attire was as is... My colleague and I started cleaning the camera and once the traces of sauce and water drops were wiped off we got back on the track.. Little I realized that the last two falls were only but a rehearsal for the grand fall and the rules of ill-fate dictates that a fall is only complete when you land ankle deep in the pit with the sneakers and denims smeared with chocolate sauce and face flushing with strawberry sauce.. The laws of misfortune took over and the inevitable happened.. With a little help from my colleague life at the fields and I moved on.. but the hugging tree took pleasure at my predicament and I could hear the hollow sound of laughter when I was crossing over...

The dirty job demands us to embrace dirt and carry it along with us (I did the same during the rest of the trip).. but now when I think of it limping across the hall (I did sprain my ankle and only realized after getting home) and staring at the wall.. they are only incidents that are catalogued in the memory under the category of things I thoroughly enjoyed doing...

A link to some of the photos...

https://picasaweb.google.com/112750315081887466810/Increal18Feb11?authkey=Gv1sRgCL6pntXFzLDbWw

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Good day...

The year is 2012 February the 8th.. Its been over a year since you have been lying dormant.. The fans (???) thought you would come back like you always managed to do.. break out of the slumber, stifle a yawn, blabber the usual nonsense and retreat cocooned into the oblivion.. But this time you stayed longer so much as to declare you dead.. but nobody mourned.. nobody cared.. the world is plagued with idiots like you..

one Blog dead, one blogger gone.. zillions fill in with terabytes of junk.. life goes on under the reign of mediocrity...

The blogger is back after an year of hibernation.. he is desperate to make his come-out-of-the-dead post lively.. but the mundane is only as interesting as the crow can get white (or the Dee can get tanned.. Aravind Swamy.. ring a bell..!!)

so where have you been??
circling effortlessly along the wheels of time like the wall clock but getting no where.. growing old adding more candles to the birthday cake but getting less bright with the passing birthday.. (no no we are not discussing skin color..!!)
Birthdays serve as a harsh reminder of the age that only knows to propel forward.. it doesnt run as you try keeping pace with hustle and bustle of life or stay still as you lay back lost in thought staring at the starry sky.. age strolls on at its own pace like a marathon runner unyielding to the demands of life..
The past one year was tuned to a single note with the low notes of gloom and high notes of glee few and far in between and easily forgotten.. life stayed course satisfied embracing mediocrity..

what do you propose to do??
With the Blog reinstated from trash the blogger would try to contribute to the pile of junk more often than the current cycles of hibernation.. Keep the fans a notch or two happier than the fact that the Blog was dead for good...

Until the next post......

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A constant nagging feeling growing into the conscious.. striving for some space in the monotony of driving on the highway, pangs of hunger grumbling in the stomach and a dull pain brooding over the shoulders... The hunger and pain knocked only at intervals but the feeling remained.. unrelenting and steadily growing... we were on the way back home driving along State Highway No. 7 via Karimnagar... we decided to take a break for some tea.. something had to be done to suppress this feeling...

Every day has a unique beginning.. some way or the other.. it can be wonderful, dull, mundane.. early, late, too early.. but there are certain elements.. a few chores that has the capacity to decide the outcome of any day... February 6th 2011 began with a sudden drop into consciousness vehemently thrown out of my dream.. when reality settled I realized it was a Sunday and I was some 200 odd kilometers from Hyderabad in Nirmal all set for another expedition into the woods.. The day should be exciting and I was eagerly looking forward to it.. But waking up in the wee hours of the morning can disturb the smoothly conduct of certain chores which ought to be done in the morning.. The consequences of those were reserved for later.......

At 5 AM we (a group of five.. bird watchers and photography enthusiast) were back on the roads.. The route was surprisingly smooth and spooky... covered on either sides with tall dense teak trees spreading out its gigantic branches and clasping the road nice and tight holding it steady awaiting to consume all tiny particles that trod along its way unsuspecting.. A few that marginally escaped its grasp fled past us back into the safety.. None of them entered into the unknown darkness that was beyond the headlights... perhaps they were all consumed and became part of the growing and inviting darkness and ours was saved for last... the dessert in the full course meal.. we carefully trailed along the snake like path... carefully because we were running on the spare tyre owing to an incident on the National Highway No. 7 where our journey from Hyderabad began....

One can not expect a more satisfying drive than that on the Six lane magnanimous National Highway No. 7 starting from the southern most point Kanyakumari to Srinagar running along the length of India like the amateur arm scissoring awkwardly the subcontinent into two halves... we were gliding effortlessly at top speed discussing facts about birds, making plans for the Sunday and cracking up professional birding compliant jokes... The promising road gave us plenty of time to reach our destination and therefore we decided to take a break to stretch ourselves and sip some tea in the dhaba nearby...

The chillness of the night embraced us as we located a table out in the open to enjoy the little shivers under the folded arms only a perfect continuation after the drive on the heavenly expressway.. The view opened to a vast blue sky with a half-lit moon and endless bright spots that looked like the drawing assignment of a kindergarten-going kid... Eagerly colouring the circle on the assignment sheet with a bright ash coloured water paint occasionally sprinkling the paint on the sheet knowingly and/or unknowingly.. but then growing bored of the monotonous activity and leaving it incomplete for a good night's sleep... sweet dreams child for the nightmares are en route for the rest of us....

Promises are meant to be broken... especially those made by the government.. and the promise for a smooth and secure drive on the National Highway was about to meet its stark reality.. A reality where the roads are the way they are meant to be.. Two-way and narrow road with more of patch work than the actual road and deep trenches dug to keep up the warranted number of potholes that should be available to make the commuters life a living hell.... To put some cherry on the cake were the vehicles coming from the opposite direction shooting blinding high beams followed by an abrupt explosion of abysmal darkness.. The endless freak show of contrasting lights keeps you wondering if you are on the right path if there is actually a path to speak of.. And finally the icing on the cake is when the tubeless tyre butts butt-end into one of those trenches and is immediately rendered useless... A group of IT professionals, well aware of the gravity of the situation, throw some jokes around to defuse the tense situation. The task of replacing the tyre always looked simple when the tyre-puncture waala performed it deftly. But we realized the practiced efficiency hidden behind the task only when eight hands under conflicting supervision and varied opinions struggled to get it done.. Exhausted and excited, claiming to have added something new to the resume, we got back on to the dusty path treading carefully hereafter....

Sunlight dawned streaming through the dried spotted teak leaves showering hope that there is no vanishing into the murky darkness and the forest turned benign brown and green... We wandered into the forest, listening to the whistling of the birds and a deep throb of the axe digging its pointed teeth through the woods, along with a care taker who followed the birds whistle but turned a deaf ear to the wood chopping... He was no whistle-blower and perhaps was well-fed in the wood smuggling business... Corruption in our country had deeper roots than that of the strongest Teak tree in the 893 sq. km area... I had so many 'lifers'.. a term used in Birding when one sights a bird for the first time out in the open... We spotted Snake eagles, buzzards, wood shrikes, flycatchers, nuthatch to name a few.. and got some close and amazing pictures of the Indian roller - state bird of Andhra Pradesh..

After some wonderful sightings and photography we decided to pack our bags and head home... it was the same moment when the feeling registered its presence only to be rubbished aside.. we took a different route to reach Hyderabad via Karimnagar... We took a break for some tea.. I thought satisfying my hunger can bring some difference...

The tummy was happy and hunger faded from my conscious only to give more space to that feeling that grew like darkness that began to settle or the count of the fast approaching vehicles from the other end... there was no stopping of the endless row of vehicles or the feeling.. It was now pitch dark except for the high beams from the opposite end and the feeling filled up my conscious to take complete control and I was forced to make an abrupt stop near a dhaba and disclose its presence to the group... A desperate search to dispose off this feeling was made in the surrounding areas only in vain.. There was no alternative as hinted by my colleagues and I was completely subdued to find a deserted place out in the open strip down my civic sense and relieve myself of the hardships endured during the trip...

when in Rome do as the Romans do and when in the wild....... This was another lifer.. a first timer followed by sense of absolute relief and I felt feather-weight and free like a bird soaring in the sky.... This was a trip worth the salt...

A few pictures...

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Perched on a vacant branch, secluded and content in his own world, is Rudey a pied kingfisher throwing carefree gazes around – carefree or cautious – for the looks of it carefree.. but I am yet to learn that looks can be completely deceiving. The kingfisher stalkers continued unabated sneaking their way through the thorny bushes and dirt. After ten minutes of ouch, eewww and yikes, played inside the head none of them escaping the closed mouth, we spotted Rudey. Every step towards him was meticulously put because we knew and we knew it for good that Rudey is gifted with a keen sense of hearing and even the slightest deviance in the general scheme of things will grab his attention and he would disapparate. The sights and sounds of his habitat are well known to him like the notes of an orchestra for which Rudey is the conductor… we filthy stalkers are the unwanted notes and we better stay muted. Perhaps we should have known that Rudey is also gifted with an exceptional sense of smell and he in fact had already sensed our presence. He had only been fooling around letting us carry our cameras and foolish hopes high, wading through the thicket of thorns inching closer to him with excitement. He is Rudey – who has seen it all you stalkers hoping to catch a glimpse of me – and he is Rudey for that. It did not take us any longer to know Rudey’s playful intentions as he stood basking in the heat of our excitement and took-to-his-wings in the blink of an eye shattering our hopes, flimsy hopes it always was, and leaving us cold and dunk in the dirt… The ruthless desertion did not come easy on me and I voiced my discontent to my colleague who replied with a saintly smile apt he may have felt... A smile that said ‘Welcome to the Wild’


In the wild you are never welcome... You are an intrusion, a wrong note in the harmonious blend and you are unwanted for that, despised even… The wild is known to be rude, reckless and spares no chance to play. You are only allowed to play their game, by their rules... they raise the stakes and they call the shots... you only play. Losing is only the next thing and you never win... they let you win. Despite all this the wild casts a magical spell of magnanimous beauty that’s pure and genuine bereft of any layers of disguise or affected emotions – a curse thrusted on us humans. The spirit of such unqualified beauty, consummate and cold-hearted, leaves you agitated, astounded trying your patience, tiring you out, exacting every ounce of energy and ultimately raging with an appetite for more…


The wild imprints its paw on you and changes you forever….


The best shot of Rudey




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ok.. where do we begin this?? You have interesting anecdotes, thrilling experiences, long stretch of absolute boredom where time turned monotonous moving at its own snail pace.. You have all of these like characters in a play.. they know what they ought to do.. and they are ready waiting for their turn.. you might plainly put them one by one in the order of occurrence like reading news or you could start somewhere in the middle where something out of the blue happened and you keep the reader mystified till the end. But I have not murdered anyone in this trip to write a thriller.. though I desperately wished to stab a few of them to death.. like the bus driver from Manali to Shimla or the care taker in Katra dharamshala.. but they can wait..

This trip has only left me drained. I have lost weight, 4 kilos of them, and I am not among those who considered that as an achievement and celebrate it. I would not suggest this trip as a rapid weight loss program for those who want to lose their bulk or even trim off those round edges. I have lost my colour... my Aravind Swamy colour.. (although the previous statement is highly debatable and when put to vote will only win one vote in favour... I can term this as a writer's creative freedom to express his thoughts) The typical Indian fixation, left behind by the 'Phirangis', for the fair skin. You only have three categories.. fair which ranges from anemic white, pinkish skin to little amount of colour under the armpits... a little dusky or more would fall under wheatish complexion. (the word is defined under Indian English.. any new word used by Indians will be added to the dictionary as we are the largest English speaking population in the world.. A foreign word used by the vast majority no longer remains foreign..) and finally the absolute dark, Keiron pollard like, regarded dusky complexioned in the matrimonial sites.

A few memories of the trip which remained forbearing the infinite suction of the scorching heat find their place in this post.

Counting 'chicks': The trip was, as anticipated, full of promising nights.. the brief sojourns on filthy platforms waiting for the train.. They all loitered around the platforms, the trains.. some of them obeyed the announcing-lady, some did not bother to turn up even after repeated pleas by the lady and some dropped out of no where unannounced with no name no aim and stayed put.. The platform bustled with activity.. trains with bogies married to engines, bachelor engines piqued in loneliness wailing its discontent in sirens.. the cry of despair the cry for attention that deafened the rest of the platform but could not get the slightest of affirmative nod from the 'chuk-chuk' bulbous bogie.. Amidst the romance there were people, hoards of them, scattered everywhere like bird droppings. All kinds of them.. Tall, midget, dusky, white washed, elderly, hippie, Chinese and their elephant trunk cameras, loin-clothed with frizzy long hair, men in military uniforms and neatly groomed hair.. All of them under one platform.. The announcing lady dullard and uninspiring went on with her rambling unaware with the real proceedings.

With two of the promising nights spent under serene immobile locations, the remaining nights demanded extra efforts to catch some sleep. Some of the classic techniques were applied (modified to make it pleasant). Counting lambs therefore became counting chicks. Chicks with long legs and short skirts on them sprinting across an imaginary King's bed.. Chick followed by chick keeping the count was more pleasurable until my mind decided to play a trick to turn things nasty and my high-school English teacher appeared. The long wooden scale in her hand and the scowl worn on her face spoke her intentions in a heavy Malayalam accent as she began lucidly explaining the dictionary definition of the word 'chick'. The long legged ones waiting for their turn to sprint suddenly shrunk into ugly feathery little chickens scampering all over the place..

The night went on with chicks and little chickens running through my mind finally drifting back into a dreamless sleep as we left Delhi for Manali.. leaving behind the crowded lanes of chandini chowk hustling with furious activity, the unkempt parking where the only plausible way to take a vehicle out will be using air support, the silence inside the lotus temple.. the distinct aura which brings you in touch with your inner peace.. dwindling away the restlessness and filling the self with positive energy with every breath. You carried along with you the cold touch of serenity as part of temple's offering which lingered on chaste for a while but Delhi had more to offer to corrupt the austerity and fall back on crude dreading practicality. My haggling skills were put to gruesome tests in some parts of the capital city and I proved to be far more miserable than I thought.

Leaving behind all this we moved on for a fresh hassle free beginning in Manali.. a good sleep helped its course but we were 3 hours behind schedule..

Motorcycle Diaries:

To be continued......

PS: There are two kinds of people in this world.. One who finish what they start and
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26 years of life lived
and left behind the past
what have i stood to gain?
far-fetched dreams and
distant memories on the wane
hair still intact,
tummy pulled up tight
crazy but caring friends,
and adequately satisfying means
to meet both the ends.

Happy Birthday!!!
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When you are aboard a flight on course for the next pleasure trip, what is the probability for a super hot chic to share the seat next to you???
Ok. Thats wishful thinking..
What is the probability for a good looking gal to be claiming that seat??
Hmmm.. Lets get more rationale...
Down to earth what is the probability for a person with a feminine anatomy to be present in the visible radar??
NEGATIVE...

'Bhai saab.. Yeh Rajdhani kaunsi platform par rukegi??'
'Rajdhani!!! Aaj koi Rajdhani nahin hai..!!!'
Ok this is not happening. I thought I was done with the misadventures. There isnt room for any more. Upon further enquiry I was told effective November the timetable for Rajdhani has changed and it is already on wheels running along the length of India... And I booked the ticket on one cold October afternoon over a lousy weekend in Budapest. Admist the numbing cold and lethargy the idea spurred with a bang when the desire to run took to its heels. Running has always been in my blood since the day I have seen that very blood running down my cheeks when I tripped and fell during a race. I was always fascinated by games that involved running. I was a not-so-fast bowler with a very very long run up. Running got me to listen to the song of my heart.. beating to the rythm of my body. Running gave me a wholesome experience of being alive and connected to myself.

But 'one person's conception of craziness was other person's pursuit for passion'..
And the general conception was 'You are going to Delhi to run!! are you crazy????' barring a few like-minded individuals or the holy ones with no mind to boast about who shared the same fiery passion. Not succumbing to lethargy or the more viable conception the decision was made to run the 5 KM race in Gurgaon. The next dramatic moment you are packing your backpack, putting on your jacket and the negative probability and seated in the plane enroute to Delhi.

Its always easy to spot the person who is going to sit next to you especially when he is of the same age group. The scornful look on his face immediately suggests that he must have, more or less, postulated a similar probability theory and that beating all the odds and hopes still holds good. We exchanged casual but plastered smiles and very fortunately dint take it to the next level of hand shake. The moment he was all set and put his seat belt on, he began digging up his nose as if looking for some precious beads of treasure. The excavation went on for a while until he fell asleep peacefully snoring through his treasure-trove. The occasional jitters in the flight shook him off his slumber, weary and awake, precariously churning his nose and casting nervous glances at me. We shared some meaningful and more pertinent thoughts about the situation.
'The plane is all jumpy eh?'
'Ya.. The path it seems is full of potholes and gutters...'
'Ohh.. Sad.. At least they could keep the airspace clear!!'

The plane landed in the capital city of India right on time..

THE PLAN: Catch a pre-paid cab to the race location in Gurgaon, get all the needed information and material , find a nice hotel nearby to stay over the night and get set for the race the next day. Jolly good.. Lets rock!!

The cab driver had no idea where this place was. I showed him the copy where I had the directions written and we went passing through the gigantic DLF buildings in Gurgaon. It was the same structures I had seen above from the plane where it only looked like digital displays of may be chinese language. I felt like God with infinite power to displace those tiny pieces rearranging them to form readable letters like 'DELHI' or 'DEE'. But sitting in the cab straining my neck to see the structures in its entirety, the powers of perception altered and the God in me was reduced to a mere midget. The landscape changed from massive buildings to deserted areas bereft of human existence but the place was not to be found. I wondered if I was still in India. And finally in one of those deserted lanes the cab driver and I could spot the location.

I was given a lays chips packet, Quaker oats, registration number with a sticker and a map for the race and some do's and dont's and tips to be followed. The registration was complete and I enquired about the hotels to stay nearby only returned with wide eyed look and a shrug. So I began my quest to find a hotel in that deserted area on foot. After walking for an hour I was in the middle of residential apartments and no where to head. Then I boarded an eco-friendly two seater rickshaw which, on my request for a nearby hotel, took me to a tea stall on the main road. The tea stall also sold bajjis and lays packets and had a vacant uneven legged wooden bench for accommodation purposes. Brushing away unwanted thoughts, once again I was afoot looking out for buildings which only had shelter for cars and its owners and occupants but none for total strangers.

Finally I got into a cab and told the driver to take me to a hotel anywhere in this vast empty hotel-less city and particularly insisting on staying away from the 5 starers. He took me to Lemon Grass hotel whose building had a distinct lemon colour and its lawn evenly spaced with grass. Sweeping one glance at the interiors, the brilliantly lit chandelier and a board with illuminated digital display of foreign exchange rates I at once knew that I had to get out and chase the cab, but to satiate my curiosity I checked out the rates and left the place gracefully.

With fatigue kicking in and the will to find shelter draining out, I got into another rickshaw calculating my options. Honestly lying down on the well cushioned damp and green grass fixing your stare at the twinkling stars and the night sky is not as wonderful as we make it sound or write about. But this time the ride took me to a guest house where I found a decent and affordable accommodation. I never felt so amused cuddled under the blankets staring at the ceiling and waited for my sleep to take over.

Next day I woke up early all set for my race...

THE PLAN: Try your best to finish up the race and then take a cab to Agra to see the Taj Mahal. Today everything will fall in place...

To be continued......
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